oh well,it turn out disaster now. first you want it,then you don't want it.damn, i wish i have no one in my life. so i would be lonely and happy much. yeah, every time I'm with my friend and the others, i feel like i don't exist in that place,people ignore me like i don't even in there at all. and you know what ? it make me feel more better to be that.all my life i wanted to be with some one that can take care of me.guess what ? I have my family to be with,to share with. yeah,it make me feel much better at all.I don't need boy's in my life rite now.